The past month...and technically, the past few years....I feel as if I have lost so much in my life. And yet, in the midst of the loss, I have NEVER in my life felt so richly blessed. After a very challenging week this week..and MUCH loss....I am sitting here tonight experiencing an amazing breakthrough that I feel compelled to write about briefly. My day today has been filled with so much LIGHT. I was blessed to spend the day with my sweet angel babies, to have Deanna - one of my dearest friends - serve me so selflessly by playing with my little ones this afternoon while I ran grocery shopping and got a few other errands done (and returned home to see that my landlord had finished putting Kaden's bedroom back together after the flood this week and Deanna had completely picked up and vacuumed with the help of my little ones while I was away), have the most enlightening and uplifting conversation with a beautiful, sweet girlfriend of mine who I know God recently and very deliberately brought into my life for a Divine purpose and to spend the night preparing a small gift for my best friend....and love.
A few minutes ago, I went in to check on my babies and stole kisses from both of them while they were sleeping. I immediately lost my breath and tears spilled down my cheeks. I love them so much that they take my breath away. I have my babies....my two greatest miracles.
I have accepted Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and have a very personal relationship with Him and with a very loving and compassionate God, whose hand I see in my life on a DAILY basis.
I have a family that is so supportive and loving. I have friends who love me unconditionally. I have a man in my life who makes me feel so alive and as if my heart is truly beating for the first time.....and am experiencing love that is more pure than I have ever felt in my life.
God has blessed me with a warrior spirit that never gives up and bounces back QUICKLY and ten times stronger after each fall. I have nothing but love and the purest peace in my heart and my soul. As I am reminded of how much has been lost.....I can't help but sit back, let the tears roll down my face and thank God, as I realize that even with all that has been lost.....
I....have.....everything.



Heather,
Your ability to be positive astounds me!! You are such an amazing example to me of the love and strength that can come from the Savior. You are a real example of the refiners fire and some days I wish I could see things the way you do. Thank you so much for sharing yourself here. It makes me long to be a better me.
Posted by: Julianne | January 15, 2012 at 10:40 PM