{these are the words i would say}

I can't seem to write often enough, how grateful I am for how present my Heavenly Father is in my life. Everywhere I turn, He is there. A few weeks ago, I had a really difficult period of loneliness, heartache and was in the middle of making some pretty big and difficult decisions. It was simply a lot of different things, all happening at once. I feel as if I was in a constant state of prayer. For a brief period during that time, I felt as if I was truly alone. I am ashamed to even say that, when I KNOW, without a doubt, that God is ALWAYS there...always HAS BEEN and ALWAYS WILL BE. But I realize NOW, that that moment of loneliness WAS actually Divine..a true gift from my Father...and served me greatly in the end. However, even in that brief period of loneliness, I was not left without His tender mercies. I can't tell you how many times the Lord has spoken to me through dear angel friends, family...and especially through music lately.
 
On January 1st, I decided to set a goal to listen to ONLY Christian music, hymns, etc. for a month. I am amazed at the change this has caused in my life..and in my heart. On one particularly difficult day, I was listening to K-LOVE on my way to pick up Seneca from preschool. I had been crying quite a bit those few days during the quiet moments when I was alone and felt particularly alone and emotional in that moment. I felt so alone, inadequate, helpless, confused and empty. I am teary even writing this, as I remember this day and SO MANY DAYS when the Lord has been SO SO present and His hand and comfort has been as REAL as anything I can see in front of me. I was sitting at a stoplight, wiping my tears away and remember saying out loud, "Heavenly Father...what am I supposed to do? Please, please help me." I'm not sure why, after so many miracles in my life lately, that this surprised me, but literally the SECOND after I said those words, a song came on the radio that I had never heard before. If you'll remember, I just blogged about a similar situation a few weeks ago. Keep in mind, I am listening to Christian music almost 24/7. How the CRUD could I have NEVER heard this song...until now?! As I listen to this song now, I believe the "voice" in the song is one child of God giving council and comfort to a friend....but that day, I have no question, it was very literally my Savior speaking to ME, and as clearly as is depicted in this beautiful painting below, by Greg Olsen. And oh, these precious, precious words. My heart still can hardly contain the love and comfort I feel each time I hear them.
 
I still listen to this song and can't believe how CLEAR and TIMELY this message was. And yet, even in saying that, I shake my head at myself. "Really Heather? Really? He is SO aware of you!! You KNOW this!!!!! You have seen His hand in your life EVERY SINGLE DAY!!" And this was yet another testament of that. I share this so that I may always remember this very direct answer to my heartfelt prayers, so that my posterity can KNOW how aware God is of us...and perhaps also to share this message with any of my dear readers who may also be asking today, "Heavenly Father...what am I supposed to do?" This, is His message to all of us....

THESE ARE THE WORDS I WOULD SAY
By Sidewalk Prophets

Three in the morning,
And I'm still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I'd say,
If we were face to face,
I'd tell you just what you mean to me,
I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say.

Comments

[Kandace Wittwer]

You are so amazing! I love the Spirit that you have with you! Thanks for sharing your AMAZING testimony!!