You may notice that although I have generally been very open here on my blog in the past, that I might open up just a little bit more this year. This blog is first and foremost a record of my life for me, for my children and for my posterity. Though private things will still remain private, I feel that it would serve for me to open my heart just a little bit more for all those who may read my blog today...or far into the future. And so, I am starting that today....
Those who know me well, know that I am so passionate about life in general. I feel such overwhelming gratitude to God and my Savior for the many miracles in my life. I at least strive to live each day in such gratitude for even difficult moments in my life and view them as wonderful "opportunities for growth."
I have a dear angel friend of mine who is so much like me in this way. My dear friend Christy. She and I share such a "violent" love and passion for life and everyone who surrounds us. 99% of the time, we are filled with this love and joy and gratitude and pure PASSION and love for life. However, every now and again, that 1% will kick in and we will have a low moment. It doesn't happen very often, and for that, we are so grateful. However, those lows, that 1%, are equally as passionate...unfortunately. And in those lows, Christy and I are much alike as well....in that we have a very hard time asking for help when we are in those rare, but passionately low moments. Instead, we retreat and almost hibernate until it passes. Fortunately, they tend to pass very quickly...but until they do, we feel so dark, empty and alone. Christy and I recently discussed this and literally CHASTISED ourselves for not at least calling out to each other for help in these circumstances. However, recognizing our own weaknesses and difficulty to call out for help, we came up with a keyword....a single word that we would text to each other during those rare passionate lows. "Spiraling." That way, we would know that the other was too low to call for help and that we could immediately "come to the rescue." (The pic of us above was taken June 2010, The pic below was taken November 2009)
It's been a while for me, since I've had one of these rare lows...and often, I feel like I am not entitled to a "low"...with how extremely blessed and smothered with blessings I have been. But they still happen...as rare as they may be. This past week, on one of the days that my little ones were gone with their daddy, it happened. I was so passionately low and empty that I just wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear. For those who know me, you know that is so unlike my character. But these moments still happen...even to me. And one did. I barely had the strength to grab for my cell phone and text Christy.... "Spiraling." Before I could even set my phone down, my phone rang and Christy was there. She gave me very specific instructions of what I could do to bring comfort to my heart until she could come out the next day to be with me for a few hours...which I followed.
A few hours later, I witnessed yet another miracle in my life. I witnessed my dear angel Christy, as an instrument in the Lord's hands...and witnessed a very immediate answer to her prayers...in my behalf. A few hours after talking to Christy, she called again. I didn't have the strength to answer, so I let her leave a message. About 30 minutes later, I checked my messages. This next part is so important and so faith-building for me. Her call came in at 2:13 PM that day and said...
"Hello Heather my love. It's Christy. I just wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing. I am praying my brains out that you will have angels there to love you and take care of you while I can't be there. So, I am sure that that is happening and I am sure that you are feeling more comfort, because you deserve it. Heavenly Father loves you and He is there for you too. And I am praying that He will wrap His cozy, warm and soft arms just right around you and just smother you with love so that you can feel His comfort. Anyway, I am hoping you are actually sleeping. That would be wonderful if you were taking a rest. Call me when you get this. Talk to you soon and love you so much."
While I was checking my voicemail, I noticed that a few e-mails had come in as well. It has been a while since I have visited with my sweet angel friend and therapist Katherin. I have needed her so much, but have been so busy with the holidays and just haven't been visiting her as regularly as I should be. That day, there was an e-mail in my mailbox which read...
"Heather, You have been on my mind and we probably need to get together. Come see me...lets talk...Kathy"
Her e-mail had been sent at 2:14 PM that day. 2:14 PM. One minute after my sweet Christy had called to tell me she had been praying that angels would surround me until she was able to get there. As much as God has blessed me, it never siezes to amaze me just how aware He is of me. One minute. Within one minute of Christy's sweet prayers and message...He had sent an angel in her stead.
I called Katherin immediately, and in tears, told her what had happened and that I needed her. She told me that she hadn't been able to get me off her mind for an entire week and that she would clear her entire night for me. And so, though my sweet angel Christy couldn't be there right away, she had prayed Katherin to me....a dear friend who offered comfort when I needed it the most. The hours that I spent with Katherin that evening lifted such a weight from my heart and comforted my soul. She is an angel.
The next day, my sweet Christy arrived to bear me up, help me here around the house and bring light back to my soul. Just having her here with me was a comfort. Though her love and strength and light was gift enough, she came bearing the sweetest gifts for me that touched my heart. Knowing how much I love Louise Hay, when Christy found this box of 64 "Power Thought Cards," she immediately thought of me. She told me that as she read her set, that they were so completely filled with light and she could feel her soul vibrating as she read them. I only had to read 3 or 4 of them before I felt the same. So amazing. So uplifting. So "Me & Christy." I have chosen to select one card for each week, to put on my mirror and use as my daily affirmation. This one, is the one I selected for this week. Beautiful.
In addition to this beautiful set of cards, she gave me a gorgeous necklace charm that she said represented our friendship. "Forever." I love it and I love you Christy. But of these precious gifts she gave me, the one that made my heart swell, was the sweet card that she had written to me. You can see the beautiful card below. For my own reference, I want to record her kind words here, so that I may refer back to them when I am in need of her strength and light. Inside the card, Christy wrote....
"My Sweet Soul Sister! I have had this card for-EVER! But I couldn't resist still giving it to you...I can't freaking stand how grateful I am for you!! Can you imagine if we had never "crossed paths?" Oh, so not an option. I watch you, in your struggles, and triumphs, and *AHA* moments, and my heart swells. We are constantly learning and collecting jewels of Divine truth. I feel like I have a load that is so heavy, it's hard to carry, from all the learning, growing opportunities from the past few years. And OOOOH how grateful I AM!! That's why my heart swells with inexplicable joy as I watch you on your rollercoaster of life, because I know you are just "going collecting!!" Some might go crawl in a cave and bury their heads in the sand, missing the jewel collecting opportunity. But not Heather. Your arms are open, stretched to the heavens ready to receive the jewels the Lord has to bless you with. Oooooh I love you more than words. Love, Christy"
Can you see why I love this angel and why she literally is the sister of my soul? Oh how I love you Christy...more than I could ever adequately express. I love our passion. I love our "violent love" for ALL THOSE in our lives. I love our strength and resolve to not let ANYTHING get us down. I love that we CHOOSE to be happy and grateful in ALL circumstances. I love our faith and our gratitude for life and the great opportunities of growth that have been sent our way. But I also love that we are there for each other...in those rare, but passionate "spiraling" moments. "We are so we!!" :-) You are my angel. What a miracle you are in my life. And what a miracle you are to have had the faith and passionate strength of prayer to bring my sweet Katherin to me when I needed one of my angels so desperately this past week...within ONE MINUTE of your asking. (The pic of us below was taken December 2010)
Two perfect examples of righteous women, pure angels, that blessed my life this week as they served as instruments in the Lord's hands because they were so attentive to the Spirit. I hope, that by reading this, that you will see the impact ONE PERSON can have on the life of another, simply by LISTENING and responding to the promptings of the Spirit. I could not go a moment longer without sharing yet another miracle from my life here on my blog so that my posterity may know of the love that God and our Savior has for us...EACH of us...individually. God is so good to me. My life is so blessed.
So so beautifl and inspiring. I need that.
Posted by: Kimberly | January 18, 2011 at 10:51 AM